On the horns of a Dilemma

Lately, I have been seeing these two horns very clearly in front of my eyes. And the horns seem to be getting more and more twisted everyday. The thing is - I have spent most of my life shaping out an ideology for myself. Firstly, it's entertaining. Secondly, it gives you a sense of occupation. And lastly and most importantly, twisting your ideology to suit your convenience is an excellent way to convince yourself that you are not a total failure.

So I can very truthfully say that I am a man of strong principles, at least I try my best to be one. I cannot say that I have been totally successful in this "following my ideals" thing because the ideals tend to get modified over time according to circumstances. But I will nevertheless stake my honour on the claim that I have done my best.

But lately, it seems to me that I am doomed to be a failure even in this regard. The details are a bit too commonplace to put down in prose, so I will spare the few readers I have of them. Just let it be understood that circumstances have forced me to let go of the most fundamental of my ideals. If it had been a matter of courage, I would not have been too worried. Courage I daresay I can summon up if desperately required. But courage will not work here. It's a clash between my duties and responsibilities and my cherished ideals. And my ideals seem to be running a distant second here.

P.S :- Readers are encouraged to chip in with their opinions, however worthless they might be.